Few weeks ago I read up on A. Muscaria, picked up a couple in a local forest, decarboxydized them in an oven and drank tea with 4g of (poorly) dried mushroom. 3 days before sleep.

Holy mother of fungi, it’s like having an antidepressant that, you know, works. Deep sleep duration increased from 10 to 19%. Walking up in the morning felt normal. Weed consumption dropped roughly by half.

Only after three evenings, effects are felt four days after, although waining.

I’m just a noise on the Internet, my words are worth nothing. But read up on the mushroom, it’s definitely something different from what people think it is.

Ah, another non mainstream source of inspirational knowledge is the Blindboy Boatclub podcast. Over years he produced a lot of episodes on the subjects of mental health and experiences delivered in a very democratic, relatable way. Mixed with crazy hot takes, like how Ney York disco was the original punk for/by LGBT community, seasoned with a thickest Limerick accent and storytelling. Delicious.

Happiness is not found. It’s not an object, rather a state of perception. The more you’ll objectify and discretize happiness, the less likely you’re to achieve it.

That being said, usually drugs.

On a serious note, two books helped me to understand this mystery a bit more

1. Zen Mind, beginner’s mind by S. Suzuki
2. Flow: the psychology of optimal experience by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi.