I’ve sometimes thought, that if there is a purpose or reason for our universe, it’d make most sense to me that its some form of random number generator.

That said, I also accept that this whole thing, me as part of this universe, is just a happenstance. We happen. It happens. This happens. Now happens. Nothing more to it than that.

The happenings can be important to some, can echo, and harmonize, or create dissonance in the future, but fundamentally there is no guiding hand outside reaching in, and so what we make of this, and the actions we make, is just what happens on the skin of the here and now of this universe.

You’re 21, there is still much to be learned and experienced and healed. You have a lot of time to figure yourself and the world out.

Give yourself the time!

I can understand on some level the difficulties you face, I’m not sure if there’s any advice I can give that will translate, but my best is:

You don’t have to have it all figured out by now.

Make mistakes, take chances, be wrong. Give yourself the flexibility and oppertunities to understand what you are and are not. Just trial and error your hobbies, friends, activities, and jobs - eventually you’ll target or even accidentally bump into something that works for you.

It takes a long time to build yourself into something you like. But eventually it does happen, and its rarely into something you predict.

I loved going to the library’s giant shelf of encyclopedias and picking one at random and flipping through the pages and skim reading.

The books were heavy and had a distinctive smell, and occasionally someone tore out a page and then that was just lost knowledge.

If there was a speicific question, Librarians were essentially our search engine, you’d ask them a question, and they’d think on it, maybe even ask a couple follow up questions, and they’d tell you to come back in a little bit or even a couple days, and when you return they’d hand you a list of books to find and checkout/read to find your answer.

It wasn’t fast, but it made finding answers and factoids its own adventure.

I’m not really sure what you’re asking, but I will say, that most couple’s, be they gay, straight, or otherwise: do not like to talk about explicit details of their intimacy.

What happens in the bedroom are sensitive vulnerable personal moments. And its generally culturally taboo for strangers to ask and pry and expose those details.

I’ve seen something like this referenced a couple times now, what is it?

Intriguingly, brain organoids preserved in MEDY showed similar growth and function patterns to those that had never been frozen. Incredibly, one batch was frozen in MEDY for as long as 18 months, and still showed similar protections against damage after thawing.

The team also froze samples of living brain tissue taken from a human epilepsy patient, and found that MEDY protected them from damage. The process didn’t disrupt the structure of the brain cells, and even preserved the pathologies of epilepsy – that’s important, because it means samples can be frozen for later study or analysis without damage from the freezing process confusing the results.

Very cool especially for research - hopefully this can allow for better research into how the brain functions as they’re able to amass rare brain issues and study them together with this new found ability to preserve brain matter